I've been internalising a very complicated situation in my head

I saw this picture on Facebook one day and had to share it somehow. Now this week I have suffered from my horrible headaches again. They had been away for quite a while and how wonderful was that ! But then they came back and I realised they are mostly on the left side of my head, right behind my eye, like I would love to just take my eye out and scratch the pain away. Then I had to think of this picture again. The right side of the brain is the creative side, the "happy" side, right ? So then, when my left side aches so, it must be because my left brain fights the exact-nes, because it wants to join my right brain but it can't ? So basically there is a little war going on in my head ?.........I don't know....well anyway that is my take on it.

dark mood

I don't do this often, because I am a firm believer in positive thinking, but today I am feeling dark and down and I need to moan a bit. I am posting this image of a chunkie I did in September last year. On that 4x4 is an image of a cracked church, it now no longer stands now because of 22/02/11
I drew an angry bat on the roof, maybe that was a hint or a sign ? who knows ? Life is not getting much easier here yet, daily aftershocks and now winter has started, the weather is grotty and wet and the roads are bumpy and full of potholes. Progress to rebuild is so slow, of course, it's an amazing task and nobody ever practises for something like this, I do understand. It just makes you weary and tired, so some days, like today, I find it harder to deal with. I think about the future for the kids and how to make a buck and all I saw today was just grey, dark grey, dark black, so I had to moan a bit. I hope you understand, who ever reads this, and I am sorry, I will have better days again, maybe we have to re-think what to do with our lives.