Friday, August 02, 2013

The declaration of you - TRUST

This blog post is in support of a new book by Michelle Ward and Jessica Swift called The Declaration of You. The Declaration of You will be published by North Light Craft Books this summer, with readers getting all the permission they’ve craved to step passionately into their lives, discover how they and their gifts are unique and uncover what they are meant to do! This post is part of The Declaration of You’s BlogLovin’ Tour, which I’m thrilled to participate in alongside over 100 other creative bloggers. Learn more — and join us! – by clicking here.


trust [truhst] 


reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.
confident expectation of something; hope.

- a journal entry form a few years ago -

Such a small word with such a BIG meaning.

Trust is something that comes so hard to me, trusting my creations that is. I always do everything, take on everything, work hard and make things work, and then I start questioning myself, not trusting myself..........self-doubt kicks in, not trusting my initial decision. Trust that what I had decided to do or to make or to create is okay, is enough, is worthy. It seems a quest I am on each and every day. As an artist every day I start to paint means every day I battle the same trust issue, I need to trust my brushstrokes. I need to get into a meditative state and once in that zone, I do trust and this feels wonderful. Then once the work is finished, the trust is often no longer there, because I fear the comments. The funny thing is that in the case of trusting others {which can also be very hard -after being let down, surprised at unexpected moments by others I thought were trustworthy-} I learned to trust only myself and a selective few close to me. So yes I know how to trust myself as a person and I believe myself to be a very trustworthy person to others. Trusting my own creations is something I need to keep working on though. So writing this post is possibly very good for me to realize this and deal with it better. Referring to my first image I posted here, I do trust there are guardian Angels. Especially after having been right in the midst of the big quakes on 21/02/11 and through thousands of earthquakes and aftershocks in Christchurch (2010 / 2011) I feel more than ever I can trust those Angels, maybe that's also why I started making them ? {Angels at my table}

Worship - detail

1 comment:

Cameron said...

It is so hard to negate those voices that make us doubt ourselves, our abilities, our decisions....

I think that is why we need our art.....they are the answers that we sometimes can't voice....and the guides that we sometimes need to lead us in new, wonderful directions :)

I trust your honesty, integrity....and am so glad we are friends!